|Battimamzelle (Dragonfly) 2017 - Samantha Rochard|
I see your moth painting, the next in your series at St. Remy.
You wrote to Theo on it :
I have on the go you’ll see that, considering that life happens above all in the garden, it isn’t so sad. Yesterday I drew a very large, rather rare night moth there which is called the death’s head, its coloration astonishingly distinguished: black, grey, white, shaded, and with glints of carmine or vaguely tending towards olive green; it’s very big. To paint it I would have had to kill it, and that would have been a shame since the animal was so beautiful. I’ll send you the drawing of it with a few other drawings of plants.
(Source : http://vangoghletters.org/vg/letters/let776/letter.html)
I wonder if you did kill it. I wonder too.....given the state of our minds and a tendency toward morbid subjects occasionally, I wonder if a "DEATH's" Head moth should be ruminated on.
I offer, for you, instead, a BATTIMAMZELLE ( Trinidadian word for Dragonfly). Such a beautiful sparkly creature!
Very uplifting if you think of the life cycle. Stretch your mind to its beginnings in water (emotion) and its eventual upliftment to the air, in all its beauty, transcending the crawling existence it the water!
Much like the lotus flower, another one of my favourite themes. Except the lotus grows from dank. dirty water, where as the dragonfly usually is found near clean flowing water.
Went near to a river the other day, in an area most people won't go to. I suppose persons would say I am mad, and there is no beauty that a non-painting person would notice, but the dragonflies Vincent!!!
There were so many, and they were beautiful!
On the Meniere's subject.....well....the attacks are still coming, and the frustration is that I have little control on my environment. Understanding isn't there really, empathy isn't there either. Unlike you, I have no Theo to depend on. I must earn something, for I do have children who depend on me. I sell some work, which can be encouraging, and I think perhaps if I continue to build, I can manage to survive and hopefully be comfortable living with this condition.
Till you pop into my head again.